Father-to-be in 23 Days
Wednesday 18 May 2005 at 12:18 am June 12, 2005. That's when our baby is due. Baby girl. Wow.I'm completely unprepared for this little bundle of joy that will be entering my life in a few short weeks. Everyone says your life will change, you will not get any sleep, you'll be a zombie, blah blah blah. And I'm sure they are right.
I'm already short on sleep, acting like a zombie, and my life changes day to day. So maybe I am ready.
nah. But I am excited. This first time this happened, it was my wedding. A new person came into my life and has been with me for a fantastic voyage for the last 5 years. But she can take care of herself, at least the basics. Now a little life is entering my life, and I'm being forced to give up my selfish ways. Sure, I did that when I got married somewhat, but this is a life that depends on me for the bare essentials. I can't be like "Oh, I'll change you after ER." or "Can I feed you tomorrow?" or "If you aren't gonna shut your trap, I'm leaving." Not that I do that now...
So maybe this will help me figure out what I need to do to be a good parent, a good father, to my future daughter. I know my life will change, and that I'll be joyful and so proud of my little girl. But it sure is going to be a shock to my current way of life. Change is a difficult beast. Change is even harder when it is forced upon you, instead of you deciding to change.
Change is good. I'm really excited to meet my daughter. Jen is starting to have some mild contractions (calls 'em cramps, but I know better), so the time is drawing near. 37 weeks in, 23 days to go.